112 | How I Earned My Tears

My lifelong sense of exile and exclusion, specifically during Yizkor (memorial prayer) services at the synagogue is over.

For 58 years and 5 months, I had been excused from the room where I did not belong, but this time, I chose to stay behind. As others left, I experienced a profound sense of awe and found myself reflecting on my mother and the connection we shared.

Today I ponder on how I have earned my tears through love.
The unity within the sanctuary, knowing that each person present carried a missing part—their loved ones who have passed away. I felt solace and a deep sense of everlasting unity.

"Despite her absence, I laughed and cried, embracing the realization that I have earned my tears through loving fiercely."

– Karen Goldfinger Baker

This Week on Trauma Hiders Club Podcast:

·      Choosing to stay during Yizkor service

·      Feeling awe and reflection in the silence that followed

·      Memories of my mother and her direct way of speaking

·      Laughing and crying

·      Recognizing the love I've poured into my relationships

·      Finding unity and connection with fellow mourners

·      Understanding the missing part in each of us

·      The enduring legacy that unites us all

Related Episodes:

A Eulogy for My Mother
Grief and the Fear of Loss

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